Somebody has gone through the extremes of life on a rollercoaster ride through hell and back only to find themselves at the very same “starting point” they previously were at.
I’m hearing the alchemist ( The book)
Went off in search of treasure as unhappy with what he had his ego wanting more so he set off on that journey only to lose everything he had gained and wasting years of his life ( he was nearly murdered) only to find himself back where he rested his head the night he had that dream of those gold coins, those gold coins indeed were real and they were right by him all the time but he rejected it out of sheer greed, pride and ego!
So this is a carbon copy of what happened in the book. Somebody became quite obsessed with material wealth and gain so much so they rejected their spiritual path for the materialistic path and never once had this EVER ended well for any soul in this universe.
Becoming more cold and distant towards you and your union somebody decided they didn’t want this nor you so iced you out of their life because in their mind ( delusional) they were going to have much better than you, you we’re becoming surplus to what they wanted in their new found reality.
Having to be strong and use great STRENGTH to deal with this person and their ego was truly a spiritual battle of not wanting to choke the living shit out of them v’s feeling absolute pity for their troubled soul who was heading downhill rapidly on that rollercoaster they willingly ran towards.
They rejected the person God sent them to love and heal them.
Healing and love was far from this persons mind it was money and hoes not commitment and stability but they wouldn’t listen to their warnings nor acknowledge the million red flags they saw either “ I know I’m right” attitude and even the day they realised they were wrong they still continued on because of their PRIDE so God was always going to make this persons fall as big as their DISRESPECT was to their counterpart.
This person thought they could charm and manipulate everybody that crossed their path ( ego 🙄) this is somebody who messed around with a lot of bitches sure why not this was HIS new life and he didn’t care about the life that WAS for him in the past UNTIL now.
It’s always the case of “ the grass is greener on the other side” no it’s greener when you nurture and take care of it.
Massive losses and instability came into this persons life as karma for their wrong doings. Everything they tired to build around them crumbled, every idea and plan FAILED because it wasn’t to be but that dam pride hey!
They left the greenest grass for astroturf and didn’t they know it but you now ego likes to keep up pretence so this Shepard saw the animal it was flogging was dead but decided to ignore that red flag to and kept giving, giving and giving into this third party situation.
They wanted to feel loved and wanted but they didn’t receive that from the dead horse and suddenly this persons ego dissolved ever so slightly and the deception they placed themselves into was becoming more evident by the day.
Wanting love, peace harmony and stability in their life they began to think of the person they felt was beneath them. This person plunged into the 9 of sword’s energy of deep regret and remorse knowing what they always wanted was there all along but they didn’t nurture it or loved it they rejected , reality is a hard pill to swallow!
Everything this person hid deeply was uncovered by the moon and they began connecting more to that soften feminine, nurturing energy the moon provides they saw everything very clearly now.
The knew who and what was the valuable treasure all along and like the alchemist many years have past and we know NOTHING stays the same time, distance and of course pain changes every single one of us I guess the question is will they ever get back the treasure they rejected so coldly?